This Is My Life

My mind seems to be continuously racing, even at this hour.  I’ve never felt as driven and inspired as I have these past couple weeks.  So much time and effort has gone into research for what I need to do and get to accomplish my goals in the near future.  The sad part is that a lot of these things cost money; and lots of it.  It’s going to be another rough few months financially for me but it’ll all be worth it in the end.  I’ve never been happier because I’m doing exactly what I want to do.  There are so many things to look forward to this year and I’m excited to learn and work as hard as I possibly can to make it happen.  I think I should get some food now though, seeing as I’ve eaten once in the past 30 hours.  Just remember, do what you want to do regardless of what anyone says.  If you dedicate and sacrifice enough time and effort, you’ll get to where you want to be in time.  Be patient and stay focused

Just spent a good amount of money on a great investment today…yes it was a huge financial hit but it’s definitely got me one step closer to one of my goals in life.  I just have to invest in a couple more things and I can get the ball rolling! I’ve got a lot of inspiration and hope for this! So excited for what’s to come! Hope everyone out there has been having a great year so far!

I swear my heart grows colder each day, when something good presents itself in my life I quickly disregard it because I don’t know any better.  I’m used to helping others but never getting help myself.  Im used to loving another with no love in return.  Is it crazy to see why I’ve grown into who I am today?  It gets to a boiling point where I can’t handle it anymore.  All the fakes and liars out there, the shit talking behind people’s backs, where did our integrity and honesty go?  Oh, that was lost long ago.  I’m not gonna lie, I truly do miss you; I may not think about it all the time, but trust me I think about it more than I wish I did.  And I can’t comprehend why I can’t get you out of my mind.  Why I can’t forget you just like I’ve forgotten about everyone else.  It drives me crazy, and I only say this because I am an honest man.  I’m not afraid to show my weakness and god damn did you have me at hello.  I truly hope you find what you’re looking for, even though you’ve told me you’ve regretted past decisions and choices about me.  I just never understood why you couldn’t take that leap of faith with me.  I just hope that someday, things will change.  Love your neighbors as you would want to be loved yourself, no matter what.